Antho91

Yes, I have
sleepless night today. I do not know what the reason is; maybe I am just too
exhausted. Recently too many things happened one shot, makes me feel so
helpless. It is not the physical helplessness, rather the mind.

I am not
sure what I am thinking is right, what I am doing is right, or even what I say
is right.

I don’t
know what I should think. I don’t know what should I react.

Maybe I am
just lacking Godliness. I need the Word, I need God. Even when the world is
trembling down, You will always be there for me.

Never
Find
Fault
From
Your lovable
Once
Because
Fault
Maybe
Small
But that
Heart
Will
Suffers
A lot

Treasure.....
Treasure..
Treasure.
Your lover

It is really true that when we faces problems in life, the first thing that we need to recognize is to be calm.

Anxiousness does not get you anywhere. As Jesus said: ""Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes?" (Matthew 6:25) He is telling us that our life is in God's hands, anxiousness does not get us anywhere better.


Really, someone important in my life taught me how to be calm when I am like an an in a hot pot, jumping around, crying for solutions.


For those of us that are Christians, or at least believe in God, it is a great news. You can put your worries upon God and you know He will directs you.


If we seriously believe that God is in control of our lives, just let Him leads you, wherever it is, He would provides a way out.


Lastly, lets meditate upon this verse:


John 16:33 “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”

I am jammed
both ways. I can choose to ignore my own feeling and goes on like nothing.

I can
choose not to reveal my pain. I am also facing problem when you reacted with those
negative sayings.

I did not
mean that you must give up yourself to do something against your will.

All I think
of is I, I know I am selfish.

I am very
bad, I am having split feelings.

I don’t
wanna have this kind of talk anymore.

I can’t
afford to share it, I don’t want to pick a fight.

I learnt. I
will keep my feeling to myself.

I thank caftan,
because I still can pour out you.

You thought
you were strong,

Until
something hits you so hard,

You finally
fell.

Then you
thought you can overcomes it,

Until something
inside you,

Tells you
what you need is a strong determination and will.

Sometimes
it’s so hard to comprehend pain by yourself, especially those that people
wouldn’t understand.

Some pains
are just so bad that it hurts you and people around you.

Pains are
like thorns, it pierces deeply inside you.

It grows
out from you. It takes away your rationality.

It is a
weakness, sometimes a strong one.

You just
wish that you can live without it,

Or at least
it goes disappears.

It is a
journey of life.



Who can understands?

Lord, I just pray that you forgives all my sins, even the hidden ones.

Right now, just want to ask you to bless my dearie. She has a presentation going on today at 1030am.

Lord, I ask that everything will goes smoothly, even the traffic.

Give her the full freshness and wisdom. Let all the activities goes smoothly.

Let her gain the favour from You and her lecturers.

Let the best flow out from her. In Jesus's name, Amen

I was looking back at the old photos we have taken, it were so sweet.

Sadly, thinking back the year of 2009, it gave me a pinch of pain. If you realised, our albums only started in the year of 2009.

It should have been earlier.

"I should have known this wonderful girl earlier, let's just say 2003."

"Then I would be able to gain her attentions, and she would have been my girlfriend."

"Why purposely at that time I wan't looking attractive, and let her fell into the hands of some other guy?"

All those thoughts, made me painful.

I am so angry with myself. I do not like him, more the fact that he took part of your life.

"Why wouldn't God leave you alone till I come into the picture?"

Sweetheart, you are such a wonderful woman, looking at you made me feel so fortunate.

I will treasure you, I will love you, like you are my soul.

I want you to be loved, to be care of, and to be my life partner.

I believe our albums will goes up till the year of 2072.

Thank you for all the fun, sacrifices, and trusts that you have given to me.

"You are lovely" - I love that phrase.

You are lovely too.

Love you so much!

*Got to blame your hard drive a little. hehe