Good people, hard people

To be a good person sometimes is not easy at all. Comparing yourself with other people, you feel that even though they might at times done something wrong, but appearance wise they look better than you. People respect them rather than you.

Some times I just feel so lousy. Any of you here is bound by your own life? I know I sounded silly, but let me explain it.

I always have some weaknesses if life which is binding me. For example, I know I don't like to do something, but yet I am under a kind of so call temptation/force binding me to do it. I am not really free in life.

I want to be a good boy. I want to be good in the eyes of others.