skylumos
skylumos

What's the Meaning

GOT A JOB THIS MONTH. QUITE SATIESFIED WITH MYSELF, DESPITE THE FACT THAT WITHOUT MY FRIEND'S HELP I HAVE NO WAY TO MAKE IT.
BUT I SITLL FEEL LOST. THOUGH IT IS BETTER THAN I HAVE EXPECTED. PEOPLE JUST DON'T FEEL ENOUGH, DO THEY? I DON'T LIKE WORK FROM 9 TO 6 AND ONLY REST FOR ONE HOUR IN THE NOON. I DON'T LIKE TO SPEND 4 HOURS A DAY ON THE ROAD. I DON'T LIKE GETTING UP AT 6 IN THE MORNING.
I TRY TO COMPARE WITH OTHERS TO FIND COMFORT. MY FRIEND HAS TO WORK AT 7 IN THE MORNING. ANOTHER FRIEND HAS TO WORK EXTRA TIME EVERYDAY. IT'S SO PATHETIC THAT I HAVE TO FEEL HAPPY BECAUSE OF OTHERS UNFORTUNE.
ACTUALLY IT WON'T HELP. NO MATTER WHAT OTHERS' SITUATION IS, IT WON'T CHANGE MY SITUATION. I STILL HAVE TO WORK 8 HOURS A DAY AND SPEND 4 HOURS ON THE ROAD AND EAT DISGUSTING LUNCH.
I FOUND LIFE MEANINGLESS. I DON'T KNOW WHAT FOR FOR EVERYDAY'S RUSH AND HURRY AND WORRY. I GOT NOTHING LEFT. BUT SINCE I CANNOT DIE AND HAVE TO LIVE EVERYDAY, I DON'T WANT TO ADMIT THAT MY EFFORT IS MEANINGLESS. I HAVE TO SAY THAT THOUGH... I'VE GOT...
THAT'S SO SAD...